Why

I should feel better.

I got my first vaccine shot. Spring is coming (albeit slowly). I have a new sleep machine I used the first five nights in a row (ignoring that I failed on three of the next four nights). 

But things are oppressive. I don't know why.

I can work easy enough, but outside of that ... Even little things are hard. I can't even force myself to do things that would make me feel better, except sit in the sun.