Good, but just for a moment

In a bit of good news, I have concluded that the fall did not make me sad. So I can fall all the time, which is a relief because I already do.

I decided it wasn't the fall because I can't really remember it, but I still feel sad.

It's not like I am drowning in despair. I have had fun with relatives this week -- my oldest sister came down from near Boston to take her daughter back to college and her oldest son joined her. My middle sister was here for a bit, too.

Let me say for the record that I am very glad my niece goes to school near me.

I went to the mall with her and my little sister and had fun. I also learned something odd. All the purse manikins in Nordstrom were naked. If I had no clothes, the first thing I'd buy would be underwear, not a purse, but whatever.

But it is like someone tosses me a life preserver that works great for a little while. But as soon as Game of Thrones is over or the last joke is told, I start sinking.

The bad thoughts overwhelm the good ones. I am not sure why, and I don't like it.