Awake but not alive

Back when I was considering anti-depressants, my counselor said my brain was tired of being tired and coping. Her hope was that that medicine would get my brain back to a level playing field.

I have been on various happy pills for about 10 years now, and while I can't say they haven't helped me in some way, I am still so tired. I nap every afternoon and would sleep till noon if I could.

I know everyone is tired – new parents feeding a newborn, whoever – but I don't really recall a moment when I wasn't tired.