Matty named pharaoh

My last post was more than a month ago.

I haven't died and am not sick -- physically.

Things are still happening that I want to write about. I'm still cheating death and the recipient of incredible help.

... but ...

Writing makes me think, and thinking makes  me want to curl up in bed and close my eyes and wait for this situation to be over. Of course, that'll be ages for me if indeed it ever ends. Or maybe my  body becomes too used to teleworking and can't go back to office physically, See what I mean about thinking?

My headshrinker said this was denial (Get it? The king of "da nile" or pharaoh). I totally disagree, but since I haven't seen her in more than a month either, I can't rebut this.

Notice I  don't say "curl up in bed and sleep."

As I know it is for many these days, sleep is elusive for me. But when I can't sleep, my legs tend to start jumping.

Last night is a good example of a story to tell, a brush with death and help.

Because I decided standing up would be dangerous, when my left leg started to jump last night, I tried to sit up in bed. Emphasis on tried.

I sat up and immediately fell over and not to the left, which means onto the bed, which isn't super-safe. Last night I fell to the right, which meant all that kept me from a tumble was my chair, and it isn't real comfortable to fall into my wheelchair. It was less so because my right arm was trapped under me, and I feared any attempt to free it would send me off the bed.

But I had noticed lights on out in the living room -- maybe my sister or brother in law was still up -- so I had Fame bark. She did, but I didn't hear anyone coming. I was starting to consider my next move when Fame ran to the door, her tell that someone is coming.

It was my niece. My nephew was a little behind her.

After learning I was OK but stuck, she offered me her arm and when that didn't work, just pulled me up.

There was much laughter throughout, especially when she told me she was mostly worried I'd be dead.

I guess I shouldn't worry when I have such people watching out for me. But I'm not turning in my pharaoh's robes.