I want to be like Lenny Dykstra

Lenny Dykstra, we are told in the book Moneyball, was built emotionally to play baseball, as opposed to friend and star of the book Billy Beane, who was built physically but not emotionally to play baseball.

The book recounts a story of the two watching a pitcher warm up.

Who is that, Dykstra asks.

Steve Carlton, one of the best, Beane says.

I'll get a hit off him, Dykstra says.

Beane was already thinking about Carlton's nasty pitches, working about the future.

This is paraphrased to clean it up.

I never liked Dykstra, but apparently his mindset is what I need.

What a feeling

I googled leg warmers a few weeks ago.

I am not a huge Flashdance fan. In fact, I have never seen it.

I just decided I needed to wear shorts year-round, and I would even  wear goofy leg warmers if needed.

Instead, I found a newer iteration, more normal-looking, that won't get me laughed out of the house - although if I were, my legs would be warm.

The ones I bought look like gartered stockings if gartered stockings were opaque and stopped at the ankle and instead of a garter belt had elastic around the top.

The only problem is when my shorts bunch up, then you see the tops of the leggings and I look ridiculous. But I am warm.

Fatigued

Not very good at "powering through."

I read an article last week where the author talked about being scared to stop looking at her phone lest more bad news happen.

She is clearly more optimistic than I am. I know no phone is going to protect me from bad news. If it isn't the pandemic, it's lies or hatred or anger or fear. 

Everything these days leads to the dark side.

Add to those "listening fatigue."

I knew about this intuitively, but this week got an email from my caption phone at work explaining why meetings are so tiring. I have to use part of my brain to hear, part to watch people and part to read the captions. That's assuming the captions are accurate and not X-rated gibberish, which oddly they often are. That means another part of my brain has to figure out what in the name of God,  assuming  sexual harassment isn't the goal, the speaker is saying.

No wonder all I want to do is sleep for a million years.