Scared

In one of the stories he used to tell at concerts, Bruce Springsteen talks about getting his draft notice:  "We were all so scared," he says. Me, too.

He failed his physical and went on to become a superstar. I am not sure how my terror will play out.

it is not that I am worried I'll get sick and die. I just can't stop thinking that my life is going to be permanently and badly altered by this pandemic.

Maybe that means I'll never make it back to the office, which seems more and more likely as my body gets more used towering from home.

Or I put off seeing a doctor who could help me.

Or maybe in addition toeing bitter, I will be perpetually sad.